Fa|Th , DeVoTiOn , DeDtiCaTioN

PART 4

So did Rong actually walk Li to the path whereby he tinks he shud not continue to pursue...Rong set up his mind and brought her onto the grass patch...heart was broken thou....coz he noes that the ending for it...Rong told himself....i noe i will not be able to win Alex...Rong is a very determination guy...of coz he din relly give up but instead Rong decides to give himself some time to change himself...to be a better person....

After that Rong send her home...althou Li din noe that the 'game' was a very serious matter...but the answer was alredy out....sad and depressed...Rong return home .........This was almost consider last outing as Rong is entering the army in a weeks time....that is one of the reason...he led Li to the grass patch.....Being in the army will have not enough time .....Rong wants the girl he loves to be happy and be able to see each other often and spend time together..but army will not be able to make that happen.....Rong noes it well..it was juz a matter of time..giving himself 2 months to try chasing her...2 months is short..but wad Rong did...was equivilent to what a guy could do for 2 years.....

From things that he did in the start... the daily escort to and fro home....the laughter and joy ...and the wonderful moments at the beach....the nick they gave each other.........the daily phone chats till unearthly hours?? Rong did alot of wonderful things to her....there was even times when Li was drunk...Rong accompanied her througout the whole nite till she awakes....even carried her back home b4 when she can't walk once...this was all sweet moments..but wad he did...was not enuff to fight Alex....Yes lookS does matters......From wad Rong knows....Alex was good in sweet talk ....but action wise it's not enough to win Rong thou...Nevertheless Rong tried his best...and did wadever he could...

Rong thinks back of the question he once hinted Li....Rong did drop alot of hints everytime..."How u find me aR?" "What kind of person i am?" " Why do u trust me so much everytime?" ..and many other hinting questions...Li din relly suspect much...coz Rong guess she only treats him as a normal reliable sociable friend.....

After the day where Rong led her to the path into the grasspatch....Rong then seldom contact Li alredy..cause Li was very busy...guess wif Alex...
Each day..Rong will go drink out wif friends..start to smoke ciggys....it's not trying to act cool and look emotional by smoking and drinking..it does help Rong to resolve his sadness..... What Rong wants is juz a relationship that will last...and be happy wif her.....althou failure is part of life...this time..he has fail deeply....and wound which is hard to heal...Rong decides to give it a last shot...to...ask THE REAL QUestion

"Li, From the day i met u at the pub , i was alredy deeply attracted to you...all this while i have been trying my best to win ur heart....althou i may not be that good in sweet talking...but my heart for u will never change...will i ever have a chance to be ur prince one day..and accompany u through all the up and down periods u may have....?" This message was send while Rong was in a pub.......After drinking so much..he finally decides to send this message..it was created for more then a month alredy..it was kept in his draft message...Rong juz dun have the courage to ask it....everytime Li took Rong's HP...Rong was sweating nervously...coz he forgot to save it into a more private area ...he was so afraid she would read it....

5 mins pass...no reply....10 mins....still no reply.....Rong noes it...no replies means..gone....it's over....the word...rejection..floating in his mind.....an hour pass.....no replies still..it's over..Rong finish the last drink and ciggy..and went to the place where they first met...alone....Rong look at the stars and told the sky...."This is the place where we first met...and will be the place where it end...The person that shud be standing beside me shud be Li....but she's not here...which means...i`ve failed and lost the battle...

Memories of Li and him started to flash in his mind...the smiles on her face...the fun times they got together...the things they played at the beach..running around catching each other....all the romantic times...at the jetty and pubs....tears went uncontrolled and flow down to his cheeks...each tears filled wif sadness..and despair...For so long Rong din weeped b4....she was the girl that he relly treasures.... Rong walk back to the path where he held her hands....looking at the grass patch...and recalled the day where he held her hands... Rong told himself..."althou ive cheated....opening my eyes to bring to the end of the path.." But watching ur beautiful eyes and the trust u gave me..was worth all this 2 months of what i have done..... I`ve never regretted knowing u...U let me noe what is love is all about...and strengthen the willpower in me....to acheive those impossible stuffs which i had never done b4.....

"It is u..who gave the sparks of my life....giving me hopes when i was down...cheering me up each time u see sad....spend the most memorable times with me in this 2 months b4 entering the army....Thanks Li...."

And few days later as Rong was about to enter the army.....Li called Rong..."Rong , hows life....been going on fine..? ...somehow..it was not a call to give ROng a chance....Rong noes she had saw the message he send to her tat day..she was juz faking ignorance......why is it so..? Coz...Li then later told Rong..that she and Alex...became couple already..This moment..Rong finally got to noe the answer....Rong then weep another tears of lost love.....the feeling where u lost to another guy.....tat tear contains all the determination which Rong would have....." Rong din wanna Li to saw that...he wanna proves his strongness..enough..althou he replied..."oh isit..haha congratz.......the tone was when u cry...the low tone voice.....Li should have hear it..but somehow....din relly asked why..It was so hard to continue the conversation..after hearing the news....so Rong told her..." Hey Li , i contact u again k...i got something to do now..." This was the first time..FIRST time.....Rong first telling Li to put down the phone as he got things to do..it was never so in the past....coz Rong valued the every seconds which is spend wif her....

Li said..."ok..." that ok was last line Rong ever heard from her.....as Rong enters the army...he look at his phone..."scrolling though all the message Li once send him....and slowly deletes them away..one by one...each which was once a memory to him...Rong broswe through the messages which he prepare long ago to send her...but it can never be sent again...
"There are 365 days a year.....8760 hours in it.....525600 minutes ....and
31536000 seconds......i WIsh i Could juZ spend every second with u...putting a smile on ur face each time...and willing to finish 31536000 times eternity with you....." SAdly he could not send this anymore...

Now in Rong's life...this setback gave him lots of determination...he told himself...2 years in NS....and i will prove to Li...i will be better then Alex....Rong took up guitar lessons juz to finish the song Li likes....he wanna finish this all by himself...and meet Li on her 21th birthday which is about the time where Rong finish NS.....He would then play her favourite song to her at the first place they met...and not the old ROng she noes......If you were to choose the path one day....Will u bring ur love one to the end ...or bring her off the path?.. knowing that what are the consequences.....

Sad....but determined....
Rong
31 march 2005...(the day where we met ...)

pOkE heRe @ 10:28 PM