 Name: mEpH Age: 24 Sex: Male DOB: Date is confidential School: In SIM now..! Car: Lancer Glx 1.6(white) Bike: Kawasaki KRR 150(sold)(Green) Email: webby008@hotmail.com Msn: webby008@hotmail.com ♥ Estee's Blog ♥ Christopher's Blog ♥ Janice Is Butter's Blog ♥ Tangwee's Blog ♥ Ling's Blog ♥ Amanda's Blog ♥ Priscilla's Blog ♥ Selene's Blog ♥ Ellis' Blog ♥ Cristal Blog ♥ Christine's Blog ♥ Esther's Blog ♥ Irene's Blog ♥ Ariel's Blog ♥ Cher's Blog ♥ Sharon's Blog ♥ Mei Ting's Blog ♥ Janice's Blog ♥ Melody's Blog ♥ Guang's Blog ♥ Jasmine's Blog ♥ Melvyn's Blog ♥ Shivonne's Blog ♥ Tze Kian's Blog ♥ Edelyn's Blog ♥ Jovi's Blog ♥ Hui Xian's Blog ♥ Mei Fong's Blog ♥ Jane's Blog ♥ Hui Fang's Blog ♥ Winnie's Blog ♥ Elsa's Blog . . +( ( a b o u t . m e ) )+ . . . Name: EsTiQuE mEpH Belongs to: Estefania Lin Xin Yi~ Hobbies: To Hop around. Gender: Male Primary school: Da Qiao Pri Sec school: St. Gab Sec Tertiary School:Temasek Poly University:Singapore Institute of Management Horoscope: Virgo Birthday: 13 Sept 85 Hair colour: Brown Eye colour: Black (doh?) Skin colour: In between fair and tanned Address: Hougang Ave 8 Blk 633 Email add: webby008@hotmail.com Right or left handed: Right Marital status:Iam Gay! Siblings: 28 years old sister When u wake up: When i feel like? When's ur bedtime: When i dun feel like? . . . +( ( Have you ever ) )+ . . . Tried smoking: Yes. Kinda suck Drink alcohol: If driving then lesser Been hurt emotionally: This question sux Kept a secret from anyone: Who doesnt? Been on stage: yeahhs Kiss a girl: yEap(mum including too?) Been in love: yEap . . . +( ( Favourites ) )+ . . . Day: Friday Colour: Green Food: Japanese food Drinks: Plain water Number: This one is secret... Character: None Sports: All sports which start wif "B" except Ballet Song: Janice - Dai Ko (Big brother) Movie: Faces of Death . . . +( ( do u believe in ) )+ . . . Love: 50/50 Faith: 50/50 Urself: Lost hope Ghosts: er. nope Angels: 50/50 God: 90/10 . . . +( ( last 24 hr ) )+ . . . Hurt by someone: Maybe Miss someone very much: Who dun? Cried: Seldom close to none Met someone new: No Met someone Old . . . +( ( love life ) )+ . . . Do u have a crush on ur teacher: I wan to crush them Have a secret admirer: I tink so?(whahah BHB) Do u wanna get married: Told u i was gay Plan on having kids: How to have kids with 2 dic*s? Age to get married: Gay Nid not declare to the govt How many kids do u want: Gay kids Hav kids before marriage: nuuu Do u have a crush: Gotten crushed What do u want most in a relationship: Pureness Love or Lust: No love no lust, no lust no love WoRlD iS cRuEl , LovE iS BlinD LosT in SaDneSs , BluR in MinD hEaRt iS bRokEn , FlamE haD diEd TimE hAs pASsEd , BuT Why ArE YoU StILL noT miNE
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ive found the meaning of life.
Seems like it's Qing Tian now~ ..iAm Satisfied and happy..and glad...and excited and nervous...so many many emotions at one time..how am i bEIng AblE to CopE wiTh alL sorts oF EmotioNs..but NEverThelEss iAm HAppy... and Delighted With Wad god Set For Me...
ive lEarn ALot lAtely...realLy ALOt..mOre then WOrds Can Sae..i Get To be more matured...Learn the true MeaNIng oF WhaT is LIfe about and What are REal Frens for....b4 i Start Saying ANYthing...i tiNK i Shud Specially Thank Zhi Da and Eddy For ALl the Help and COnsoLing ....WithOUT them...i TInk I wuN be Here Blogging... ive BEen Thru SO MUch lAtely...things BeyOND IMAgINation...but I Still Manage to CopE wif Tat....i Did Things WHich I Never WOUlD ever TiNK about iT.....i WAs Even MentallY broke DOwn...iT never Happen This way Ever B4...and i RellY meant BRoke Down..i Drove mY car Around AImLessly...Circling Suntec's Fountain Of wealth For like 10 mins..and I can't seems to Find mY way out..i WAs likE trapped..iAm lost...Roads Seems So Quiet...my CAr was SO Silent...even thou The radio Was PLaying... Droving along the Road...i see SO many Cars...but i DUno to keep wad LAnes to reach HOme...i duno Where i shud go....i felt LIke A Lost Sheep...but my mind i NOe..my Father's car i Shud NEver Ruin It..i Promise to Drive it hoME safely....it's His car not mine..i WUn Do Stupid Stuffs to damage it... i WUn MAke hIM worry either... I still mange to got hoME Safely AnyWay..and I took Out my Cigs...and started Smoking liKE A ChimNey...i seldom smokes...like once in A BluE Moon..but i bought like 10+ bottles of LIquor total...i juz Wan to Drink And DriNK And Drink..coZ i WAn To sleep...i tried Askin for Sleeping PIlls from Kat..but she Dun WAN to give me...well i understand i Shud Never try to take those juz to sleep and forget my worries..buT i cAn't.. i relly nEeded to rest..SO i Went To drink as MUch AS I can....ALl i wANted is to see Her again...i miss her badly.... imAgine this..Drinking Smoking ..and strongly down emotion..together ....all at once..the feeling IS Crap...i Vomitted like 4 times tat day....no food for 2 DAYs Alredy...wad i vommited are PUre Alcohols.. i wAs in Great paint at i collaspe a few times ON ground..i noe This is shameFul for a guy...i noe it's so funny to see tat..but When U are relly Troubled and down..u Tink anyone woulD care?? the pain WAs SO Unbearable... With NO food for 2 days..and JUZ PUre driNKing Smoking ....it's worst then giving birth..i tink ...maybe... i can't Drove...so ZHi da hElped me...my dad told him to Take CAre of mE..and i trust him..lucky Zhi da was There..otherwise i Will not be here... i JUZ wanted time to PAss for me to see her..i miss her badly..real badly.....never had this kind of FeelINgs b4...i tink alot...alot alot alot...why....why is this world so cruel... by the way Zhi da..why U never go be pychoLogist...u can be ONe leh...u noe how humans tiNK very well sia..or can go Be consellor......u canBe onE sia.... TRuouT The whole day..life was like a Drama..i seems to bE the main Character.....it's relly so dramatic... like acting a show...i Thought This WOulD never hAppen In Life...but it happens on me....it sucks... can u BElieve..my eyes was So SwoLlen and i was walking aimlessly in J8?? i dun even remember where i was hEAding...how Did i Reach there...the feeling of BEN KUI.... i VomMIted at the car pArk..so mANY Pple Saw...it wAS REal Embarassed.... tats sucks.. maybe pple Will Pity me?? but i dun wan the pity...i juz trying to Get mYSelf to Sleep...nothign Else...the pain Was So pAInful Tat i have to get handled by eddy to the car.....thank god..his there..and consoling me....eddy's mum even noe wad happen coz i went there earlier on...i dun even noe i was at his house..i was like lying on the floor like an idiot... maybe i Could start writing a book...maybe this could sell well.....like my previous story?? where the hit rates was like 500 in juz a week haha...call This a Story or drama..but it relly affects me so much.... but iam ok now..i noe who are those pplE who CAre for mE.....thanks zhi da , eddy , kat , mat ....and of course mY family...Life can't go ON ..if any one of u are not around.... sorry for the shouting kat...i can't contolled myself with ALl the Alcohol Level in my boDy...hopE u UNderstand ..we shall meet up soon..and chill......sorry ok? i shall blog till here le....kinda tired..still have to work...life stil goes on....but noW mUch more mEAningfully ~ =) pOkE heRe @ 10:12 AM Monday, October 09, 2006 Today is the day...
Yes it's da DAY !... i Love 9th ~
pOkE heRe @ 6:20 PM Monday, October 02, 2006 Cunning people..
In this world there are so many pple...from good to bad ones...u never noe how bad those bad peeps can turn into...i met quite a few in life........things which u can never tink of....the things they said..the things they do....girls are always the suffering one...why are guys always the cunning peeps..? Why can't we have better pple out there...?? i can't believe it at all... i hate this world.....i rode like 150km/h todae..? meeting almost few accidents..? i duno why i did this...life wasn't in my mind juz now...i did thought of my parents...my frens..they love me...but i hate cunning pple...why muz they do this way ..... tink thru its stupid to speed and get myself dead..i noe it...but i can't control it...the moment i tink..the moment i pull the trottle downwards...the faster it is..the faster it dry my tears...i never felt so bad b4.....worst time in life...i hate cunning pple......
I dun nid anyone to pity me ... i hate pple to look down on me...iam useless..iam fu*ked..iam rubbish...i sucked....hate me...kill me...wadever it is..... i not like this at all... i starting to change...i learn how this world is..cruel...u need to be tat...but i juz can't do it... i can't...this is me...i was being so nice all this way..i spoke good "lies" to cover someone...i duno why i did it.... i regret....if time can turn back... i will be the happiest man on earth.... i may be a unglamourous person on earth...taking only tiny weeny bit on earth...but now i noe how each single soul on earth..can do so much..so much tat u can change ur life...i had enuff...god never have faith in me... wadever i do..it dun work out....i hope god is watching me while i ride...i dun wish to make my parents cry for me...even my friends.... Thank ahdaz and eddy for todae...i will heed ur advice.....iam aint stubborn F*** this world...i hate it..it's unfair....i duno wad to sae anymore..i will blog soon..wif another story which i tink i would like to share... pOkE heRe @ 10:23 PM
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